So, I miss my habits and routines. Eating lots of blueberries because they are brain food and super good! Blueberries aren't in season right now. At least not in California. I miss having a croissant with my espresso, which used to have one packet of raw sugar only now has agave nectar. I miss it. I know the texture and taste and want what I want all the time. Only, it's lovely to choose what is best and delay gratification. I know how to do that. Growing up, Ebs always wanted to open presents on Christmas Eve. This was me: "It's Christmas Eve. Tomorrow is Christmas. I want to wait for Christmas!" Just one example.
Day 2 of Nouritture, after my ice water, I had eggs and peas again for breakfast then an espresso with Lecie in the late morning. My lunch, my wonderful lunch, was 4 slices of sirloin cap and a large serving of collard greens. I ate that plate of delicious quickly cuz it was good! Throughout the day, I felt that wonderful warmth in my stomach. My core is noticeably warm all day long. I imagine a fire inside my stomach, the very center of me, which is invigorating. I feel like I can do anything. I sprinted and practiced my headstand during my down moments! I thought, Who am I?! It's not that I feel happy then I feel like being active. I feel warm in my core which surprises and comforts and assures me that my body is ready to run, climb, dance, stand up straight and that makes me happy. I don't feel the need to "warm up" because I'm already there. I wore my Converse today to work on my posture
I've been getting very little sleep, averaging 3-5 hours per night this week, so I came home and napped. I continued to wake then fall asleep until it was 11PM! I'd meant to take my ice cold shower at 9! So, it's now 01:50 and I'm blogging while eating dinner... asparagus. I didn't buy any meat today. I see that breakfast and lunch are the easiest to manage, especially being so close to the Farmer's Market, Trader Joe's and WholeFoods. I had a headache after my ice cold shower and decided to eat something.
My ice cold shower tonight, I noticed that I am not shivering like I did the first time. I am able to regulate my breathing after 30 seconds to 1 minute. I'm grateful for the numbness in my trapezius after a few minutes, since the ice cold water becomes bearable and I know my body is working. I set the alarm for 20 minutes and got out of the shower with 5 minutes to spare. The goal isn't to stay in the shower as long as possible. The shower is just the start of the temperature mastering. I may begin having just a 5-10 minute ice cold shower going forward only I love staying in as long as I can. I love the view of my skull timer. It's so Andy Warhol and a little creepy. I did my 20-minute ice pack and wondered why my bottom was cold! Silly me! I had ice on my neck!
A few notes:
- Lecie commented that my face appears brighter
- My fat areas feel soft
- My body muscles ache a few hours after activity when usually the ache from exercise doesn't occur until the morning after
- I am thirsty and hungry
- After eating I feel "refreshed" and "enlivened" more so than "full"
I know that my body needs rest and I ought to figure out great dinners of protein and veggies and legumes to make sure I'm taking care of myself.
